today quite emo de. maybe coz today is our 1st year anni ba. had lots of thoughts in my mind. think can only vent it here le. i'm not sure if X's gonna read my blog but i jus wana vent it all out.

all these while i had been thinking a lot a lot. there are realli a lot of questions in my mind after de break. i wana noe why can you forget all de memories we shared throughout dis 11months and jus say a breakup soo easily?! however, all i receive is only a sorri from you. i dun wana hear jus a sorri from you you noe ma?! wat i want is an answer! do you noe you hurt me deeply and painfully?! today saw kerox and his friends at polyclinic. they said many sarcastic words in front of me. you noe how terrible was i but yet i had to act strong. my heart hurts. it hurts really really a lot. how can you bring up breakup so easily?! why can you treat it as though nothing happen?! i know that life must still get on but isn't it too fast for you?! this makes me wonder what do i stand in your heart?! what does this relationship means to you?! haven't you realised that i had been crying since the day we broke up?! tears have been keep coming down without me noticing all these while. i'm sick but i don't receive a single concern from you. why is there such a big difference between before stead and after stead?! this even makes me wonder did i meet a wrong guy again?! how can you forget about those happy times we had and your promises so easily?! i still remember you told me dat we must follow mrs chan as our model. you promised me we will last long till our hair turns white but our relationship only lasted for 11months. you promised me you would not be like the other guys and will treat me well but you are treating me as though a stranger now. you promised will give me happiness but you hurt my heart the most now. you promised me you will love me forever but you had given up first. had you really forgotten all these promises you made to me? i'm really disappointed in you. i wanted put myself to hate you but i can't because i still love you. i do not want to hear your sorries. i just want to know why. why your feelings fade so easily?! why is our 11months of relationship so vulnerable and weak?! are those promises only sweet talks from you?! hais~ if choices have consequences den my consequence of choosing to trust you is myself to get hurt by you deeply.