nearly late for lessons today~ lol! finally decided where to go after school le! ended up in ben's house! mahjong session! lol! left 4 girls and 4 guys! haha! think charlene lose de most le ba?! poor her! slack at ben's house! his house is damm stunning sia! lol! ^^ short post for today coz i'm damm tired now!
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@5:28 PM.
Monday, April 28, 2008
school was normal normal! haha! atrium got tangs sales! bought a kinder burneo package coz got offer! 8 packets only 10 bucks nia lor! cheer my day up man! cmaths lecturer also damm funny today! i think my class de most noisy one today at lecture hall! fancy discussing about 2moro's plan loudly during lecture! haha! soo until now we haven't decide where are we going 2moro! lol! kbox?! guys dun wana sing! pool?! sounds interesting! play mahjong?! illegal gambling sia! watch movie?! wat nice movie recently neh?! aiyoyo! where to go 2moro?! my class is soo cute! ^^ enjoy their accompany~!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:04 PM.
i had enough of ur nonsense le! who do you think you are?! who do you think you are to scold me, to critcise me?! blame me?! yayaya! go ahead and push all de blame to me jus to make urself feel better is it?! i understand you too well le! you jus wana show to people dat you are de innocent one yea?! let me tell you dis! no one has de right to scold me unless dis person had gone wat i had gone through! have you ever thought how were de days i gone through ma?! have you reflect urself ma?! i think you didn't coz you are happily indulge in ur bed of roses ba?! i kept mum about all de critics but dat does not mean i admit to all de 'crimes' you guys had listed down for me! i'm not a pushover ya?! i'm no longer dat kind and innocent jessica who will jus swallow down all de injustics anymore! ohya i still wana thanks you for creating de today me yea?! i jus didn't wana make de snowball grows but seems like de more i wana keep de profile down, de more nonsense i get from you! let me stress dis! i'm not trying to gain sympathy or wat by posting up dis post! i jus want audience to judge for themselves using their own eyes! i'm not gonna shed a single tear for you anymore!
*NOTE: NO ONE HAS DE RIGHT TO SCOLD ME ANYMORE IN MY BLOG UNLESS YOU HAD GONE THROUGH WAT I HAD GONE THROUGH! I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANYMORE NONSENSE MAKER IN MY BLOG FROM TODAY ONWARDS! THIS IS MY BLOG AND PLEASE RESPECT MY RIGHTS!
*NOTE: NO ONE HAS DE RIGHT TO SCOLD ME ANYMORE IN MY BLOG UNLESS YOU HAD GONE THROUGH WAT I HAD GONE THROUGH! I WILL NOT TOLERATE ANYMORE NONSENSE MAKER IN MY BLOG FROM TODAY ONWARDS! THIS IS MY BLOG AND PLEASE RESPECT MY RIGHTS!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:48 AM.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
slacking at home! nothing else to do! 2moro school at 10 and ends at 5! another long day~ but luckily tuesday de marketing tutorial and lecture cancelled and iwebdesign practical postponed to wednesday! haha! soo dat means tuesday's lessons from 8 to 10 nia! shiok ar! we decided to go kbox and play pool as a class! first class outing sia! damm looking forward! everybody gonna wear our orientation tee! cool~ okie dad brought home cj7 vcd! yeah! gonna watch it later! ohya! read about something and pretty pissed off after reading. but, however, de educated me will not scold vulgar de coz i'm not like some people! i jus wana a full-stop to everything can?! get a life please! sianz~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@1:28 PM.
went out wif shar instead wif my mum! too bad meimei wasn't able to come! went to PP first zai took de free shuttle bus to compass point to meet her boyfriend, edwin! dinner was on edwin at yoshi! haha! bought toys at kiddy palace! lol! overall, it was a fun day! went back home and played those games wif my sis and bro! talked on de phone wif adam too~ lol! he's a expert in multi-tasking kkz?! he's also a super bhb guy! omg! can't stand him!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:36 AM.
Friday, April 25, 2008
two days didn't update my blog le coz not feeling veri good these few days. shall update some stuffs now?! tuesday's presentations were veri smooth! i think all de groups had done a great job! haha! started to slack after de presentations coz jus purely preparing those presentations had indeed tire us all out le! lol! school was okie okie for de next few days except i was pretty emo coz of some stuffs. hais~ how many times must dis type of happen to me again?! the injustice in my heart, who noes?!
why was it you who tarnish my hope again?!
maybe i think it's time for me to let go of you le ba?! clinging on to ur promise is of no use le coz you were de one who broke ur own words. i'm speechless and i have nothing else to say anymore. if dis's wat you wish and wat you want, den i'll give you my blessing. i'm jus glad dat we had never started or else de hurt will be greater ba?! i will step out of ur life, never to enter again since you had already sort out ur mind and chose a never-return path. bye, my boy. i will remember de memories we shared.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@4:50 PM.
Monday, April 21, 2008
took de same wif jason coincidentally to school 2day! chatted a lot in bus! clarify a lot of my doubts too~ lol! received another project presentation again! dat means 2moro needa present 2 powerpoint slides! i'm stress up again! ohya! kinda made cutiepie mad wif me! sorri girl! went to amk hub after school to finish off wif our project but i needa go off earlier coz i needa have my dinner at home! sorri guys! waiting for BOSS to send me de 2nd powerpoint presentation coz i think i left my draft wif him! hais~ 2moro another long day~ 8 to 6! btw, received dao all de photos taken during last day of work at polyclinic le! yeah!
ur encouragements keep me motivated!
cutiepie(sy), hui ning(hn) & me(jess)!
lollipops~!
i'm gonna miss them~!what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:23 PM.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
realise dat i had been updating my blog like everyday?! haha! is it something good or bad?! 2day had been slacking at home! finally talked to weili le! like ages never talk to him le lor! keep MIA-ing! actually he's busy wif his attachment at SGH la! haha! 2moro school's starting at 10 and ends at 5?! hais~ another long day! still gonna finish up wif project work 2moro after school soo gonna turn in early 2night coz 2moro's another long day~
ahgirl misses ahboy!
boy, if you happened to read my blog, i want you to noe something. no one will be able to replace ur position in my heart. i understand de insecure feeling you had in ur heart. i dun deny dat there are indeed realli many temptations in poly but i believe it's de trust dat we had for each other dat made us able to go soo far. we had gone through soo much le and dis will be another obstacle we have to overcome together. although our timings had been crossed over, it's only an overcoming period. after you finish ur studies, everything will be back to normal le. i promise i'll wait patiently for ur return de yea?! promise me dat you won't let anything affect ur exams now ya?! i had been praying for you everyday and i believe god will reward people who had put in hard work de! jiayou! let us work hard towards our future kkz?!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:39 PM.
Saturday, April 19, 2008
actually finally got to rest after a tiring week de but needa go see doctor at simei there early in de morning! dad drives us there and fetch us home! lol! continue wif my sleep~! evening time jiu pei my mum go kovan coz she needa buy some stuffs. meanwhile i also went in search of a new earpiece and tennis racket! bought a new earpiece but not racket yet coz i still not sure which size to buy. needa re-confirm wif my senior first! i'm super tired! everyday like not enough sleep de! needa chiong my project work wif my team-members after school on monday le coz tuesday is de pesentation! my first presentation in NYP!
you made a difference in my life~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:49 PM.
Friday, April 18, 2008
my poly life had since started for 1 week le! haha! signed up for tennis wif my class today during de cca fair thingy! actually interested in hip-hop dance de but den like too hiong for me liao den chinese orchestral de practise days clashes wif my timetable! cannot imagine jessica gonna play sports right?! first time join sports related de cca! i'm excited and looking forward to it! needa turn in early 2night coz 2moro needa wake up early go see doctor again~
i'll always be wif you~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:11 PM.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
putting back earstud for cutiepie~
yeah! we finish de game~!
anxious~!
my turn~!
say YA again~!
IT0805~!
my class's girls~!
say YA~!
class photo wif OGLs~!
say YA behind BOSS~!
wat is BOSS doing~?! omg~!
another class pic~!
class photo~! 
my class's girls + BOSS~!what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:47 PM.
today lessons was okie okie! me and cutiepie were nearly late for our first lesson! in de end de lesson only lasted for like less den 30mins jiu release le! lol! make me and cutiepie rush like free de! still early for our next lesson soo we decided go and take a look at de cca fair at sports hall. soo many people, soo many ccas~! dun noe wat to choose~ either dance or music le. feel like joining chinese orchestral or else jiu hip-hop dance! haha! okie needa rush out project work le coz tuesday jiu presentation le!
how i wish you could be by my side now~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:16 PM.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
lessons started a bit later today, around 10? but me and cutiepie met up earlier coz needa buy lecture notes again~! these few days queue up buy lecture notes like free one lor! hope dat all de buying notes stuffs will end by dis week! lessons ended earlier den usual today, around 1? haha! had all de java lessons today! kinda sian in de lecture threate. i prefer lab lessons coz more hands-on! maybe jus for today ba coz i'm zhen de veri tired all thanks to yst! luckily 2moro's lesson starts at 12~! ohya! my arm is damm painful today lor coz yst carried laptop and all many lecture notes home! but still, poly's life is fun! gonna have lunch wif serene they all 2moro! ^^
ur patience moved me le.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@3:33 PM.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
i'm in school library now wif my class using our laptops~! haha! my cutiepie is jus opposite me! 2day's lecture till 6pm~ sianz! shall update more about my poly life day number 2! ^^ okie here to update le! now is like 10 plus le and i'm super duper tired! miss bus today and reached home around 7 plus le. realised i can take de same bus wif BOSS soo i think i'll take 45 back home in future! btw, thanks BOSS to help me carry my lecture notes coz i brough my laptop today to do de configuration wif siang ying, my cutiepie! haha! managed to finish some of my part for de slides coz next week gonna have presentation le! 2moro gonna continue wif buying notes again~ lol! goodnight readers~!
jus a short call or message from you will cheer my day up le!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@2:50 PM.
Monday, April 14, 2008
finally started lessons today le! met up wif my class for breakfast although not all turn up~ lol! headed as a class for our first tutorial lesson, communication skills~ was late wif siang ying and some guys coz we gotta get de notes for de whole class! in de end, de notes aren't realli yet anyway~ lol! went for lunch break at around 12 in de south canteen! many many people but we still managed to stay as a class! after lunch jiu went for our first lecture lesson, c maths! interesting lecturer and lecture! continuously, our next lesson was at de lab! allocated wif our first project work! de process of choosing team members was fun sia coz everybody wants to be in de same team as BOSS! poor BOSS~! kiap in de middle! before lessons end, managed to see dao serene and evonnie! miss them sia! they drop by de lab to see how we are doing and to transfer those photos taken during orientation de into BOSS's com! btw, 2moro's timetable sucks! all de way from 8am to 6pm! grhs~! tired~
you are de reason for my smiles~!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:16 PM.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
morning woke up and saw 2 messages. one from xiang ying and de other from alvin! xiang ying's message warms my heart up early in de morning and alvin's message was touching! after waiting for like 2 months, he finally contact me le! glad dat he's doing fine in uk! and most importantly he said in his message dat he isn't angry wif me at all and dat he's coming back again 3 months later! he jus didn't want me to sad dat's why he left without leaving a word! he didn't contact me for de past 2 months coz he was pretty busy wif his new sem but he did go to my blog to noe about my latest update! i realli miss him like siao lor! make me worried for nothing for de past 2 months~! lol! realli hope dat he can make it on dat veri special date! actually, all dat matters to me is he to be fine can le! all de unstableness in my heart had gone for dat moment upon knowing dat he's fine!
thanks for returning~
boy, promise me dun ever let me cannot find you again yea?! i zhen de cannot go through de same thing for de second time le. it's veri tortorous. you wouldn't noe how did i live for dis past 2 months de. i can't find a reason for my joy and happiness coz i can't find a suitable person to share. all de while, you had been living in my shadows but now i say out loud dat you are no longer following my shadows le coz i want you to stand proudly beside me! it's still difficult for me to say out wat you wish to hear de most from me but i promise you i'll overcome dis barrier asap de coz i had already found de importance of you in my heart le. jus give me more time yea?! meanwhile, i jus wana enjoy ur presence. no doubt dat X had trashed my faith in guys but it was you who regain my confidence in love once again. i believe de day when i accept you will be de day when i zhen de can put de relationship wif X behind me. will you pei me wait till dat day arrives?!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:49 AM.
Friday, April 11, 2008
pei my sis to MDIS after lunch to sign some stuffs den jiu proceed on to my shopping spree! while waiting for de person-in-charge to come back from lunch, we went into dis fashion and shopped. bought a pair of nice shorts and polo-tee again! lol! walked all de way down from ps to orchard! first stop, we went into OG and i bought a kappa shoe coz my previous everlast shoe was too small le. next stop was heeren! unfortunately, quite many shops were under renovations. further down, we went to far east! sis bought a bag and i also bought a handbag for my mum! haha! went to buy some accessories too! lastly, we went to kovan's popular coz i needa get some stationary for my school term! spend quite a bomb today yea?! haha! but sometimes somethings jus needa be get rid off ba?!
you MIA for 2 months le but my misses for you never decreases.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:34 PM.
Thursday, April 10, 2008
i'm now in lab using msn~! haha! cool~ looking forward to today's activities! irritating kok kin! keep signing in and out of msn! my class is getting more and more interesting! okie i'm back to update more about today! lol! played bomber in de corridor inside IT block! fun sia! love dis game de most le! from class to class bombing to freshman and OGLs bombing den to individual bombing! went to auditorium after lunch for de freshman orientation finale! by dat time, all IT students had already changed into de IT shirt! cool~ wat a blacky sea in de auditorium! saw de play being put up by de OGLs and felt veri warm about it. they realli spend a lot of time and effort to make 08's freshman orientation a successful, fun and exciting one! can see dat all de plannings had indeed exhaust them all out le. btw, my lessons are officially starting on dis coming monday! cheers~! finally gonna have a break 2moro le! but i'm not gonna be slacking at home coz i needa go get a pair of new shoes, bag, stationary and accessories. unexpectedly, almost everyone agreed on meeting for breakfast on monday! haha! starting to love my class le! 0805 rocks~! ohya dis's my class cheer! it's de spoonge-bob song!
ladies and gentlemen! are you ready?! yesh boss!
who is de mightiest in NYP?! 0805!
who is de best in school of IT?! 0805!
who has de best mentor in NYP?! 0805!
wat is de best class in entire world?! 0805!
0805! 0805! 08~~05~~!
you are always on my mind~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:31 AM.
Wednesday, April 09, 2008
today's orientation a much better and exciting one den yesterday! had tele-match wif all de other 10 IT classes! realli get to noe my class better today le! expectedly, there's a fire drill exercise~ lol! although spent de whole day under de bright and sunny sun, it's worthwhile de! haha! realli getting to love nyp school of IT more and more le! received my timetable le and gonna meet my class on monday at atrium first zai go for our first turtorial lesson as a class! cool~! most importantly, i'm damm super looking veri forward to my poly life! can't wait for monday to arrive! waiting for my OGLs to send me photos!
can i wait till de day you are back to my side again?
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:08 PM.
Tuesday, April 08, 2008
here to blog about my orientation today! morning went to meet geraldine den we walked to sports hall together coz she EIT den i IT ma. reached le sports hall jiu separated le coz different course~ min hun and me also different class. erm. my OGLs are soo fun people! haha! enjoyed playing games wif my class although it's realli super tiring~ class bonding ma soo no choice~ get to noe de people in my class better now! seriously speaking, poly's life is exciting! get to noe my mentors too! both are called wendy~ lol! promised xiang ying to come for orientation 2moro while many in class are not coming~ i think i can clique wif xiang ying and shake veri well! ^^ zhen de explore a lot about nyp today! fun but tiring day~
how i wish you are beside me and give me pat on my head and tell me dat wat a tiring day you had~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:11 PM.
Monday, April 07, 2008
went shopping wif jie today! it had been ages since i last time i went out shopping wif jie le! walked in and out between bugis streets and parco~ lol! bought many many clothes and a watch~ finally get rid of de orange watch le! went past de shop adel is working in and saw her! chatted wif her for a while! interesting talk indeed~ kinda missing de times during secondary school le. she's starting school on de 17th and me on de 14th which is like next week already! i'm soo excited for my poly life! and of ocz 2moro marks de start of my 3days orientation~ hope dat my time won't be wasted ohya! weili's starting his 2 weeks attachment at sgh a&e department. poor weili today first day nia jiu tio night call le. another sleepless night for him le.
how are you doing le neh?
are you doing fine?! i dun even have a single news about you ever since you left from my side. seriously i wana noe how are doing le. you had never once make me worry for you but dun you noe i'm damm worried sick about you now ma?! even if you wana cut off all ties from me, at least de most let me now you are doing fine can?! it had almost been a week le ever since you left but my misses for you never decrease. i noe you are angry over me neglecting ur feelings but i realised my mistake le. no one can replace ur position in my heart de yea?! similarly, you also stand a veri important place in my heart. i zhen de wana treasure ur presence for now but it seems to be an unreachable dream le ba?!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@5:52 PM.
Saturday, April 05, 2008
my mum fall ill le soo needa stay at home today to look after her. anyway i'm also free wat soo my as well stay at home? nowadays people around me like all getting sick le. super sian at home~ was webcam-ing wif shar early in de morning. was fun kkz?! soo few people online today. perhaps today is a weekend ba. weili also went out for his basketball session again~ sick le still go play basketball! aiyo~! mama and weili must get well soon hor! no one's pei-ing me in msn soo i went audi-ing! lvl-ed again today le! gonna be clubber soon le! joined a guild too called CLIQUE and i needa change my nick asap! jus wana quickly get rid of my audi nick can?! haha! btw, shar's starting school next week le and i'm only starting my orientation next week? at least still got geraldine and min hun same school as me or else i think i'm gonna be like soo anti-social liao~
iwanayoutobeback~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@2:52 PM.
Friday, April 04, 2008
went to meet up wif shar today! had aijisen for lunch! yum yum! bloated~! ahaha! cabbed down to school after dat to meet mei mei! jus in time for angklung practise! de moment i stepped in de school, many memories flashed through my mind out of a sudden. dat corridor we used to communicate, dat hall we used to sit in 2gether, dat canteen he used to buy food for me, dat school gate we used to walk out of school 2gether, dat bus stop we used to wait for my bus 2gether. everything is jus soo memorable. went to collect our o'lvl cert! my result is like scolding vulgar language! lol! see my result and you will noe le! head down to amk hub coz shar meeting her stead, edwin! haha! followed them to have their lunch yea? before leaving, shar treat all of us pepper lunch de ice cream! tried another new flavour le! yum yum! today is a yum yum day~ lol!
please come back~ you promised you won't leave ahgirl behind de!
boy, why are't you answering my calls and messages?! are you still angry wif me?! you promised you won't leave me alone to face anything de ar! i miss you. where have you gone le?! jus a reply from you and i'm contented le. i jus wana noe dat you are fine. why you choose to vanish from my view suddenly?!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:58 PM.
Thursday, April 03, 2008
today was supposed to meet elvina at geraldine's house to do medi-cure de but den elvina last min couldn't make it. hais~ other days ba! btw, meeting shar 2moro le! finally~ miss her like siao! ohya! needa thanks wei li actually coz these few days had been bothering him over my problems. he 2moro having NUS exam le and yet still spend time advising me. he's right in a way. de day i can realli move on is when i stop caring and concerning about X. but when will dat day arrive? when can de pain in my heart stop it's crying? hais~
is dis de end of us le ma?
boy, i miss you, i zhen de miss you. i realised my days aren't cheering up without you by my side. i regret for not telling you my answer. i think you also wait long enough le ba dat's why you decided to jus leave me without leaving down a word. i'm sorri. you made me realli touched dat day but i still reject you. actually i wish to only be wif you when i love you as much as you love me ar. i jus wana make things fair to you. i want to only accept you when de pain of losing X fades off in my heart. i hope dat you can return to my side as soon as possible coz dis time round i zhen de want to tell you my answer face to face to you le. when can de answer in my heart reach you?! would you be back?! back to my side and call me ahgirl?! back to my side to pat my head whenever i look down?! back to my side to cheer me up whenever i'm feeling low?! back to my side to cry wif me?! back to my side to lend me ur shoulders?! back to my side to advise and comfort me?! back to my side to remind me wif all stuffs everyday?!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@5:54 PM.
Wednesday, April 02, 2008
went to polyclinic today but not to work exactly. actually went there to look after those 'kids'! haha! after work went to distribute lollipops to all de staffs working there as an appreciation of us! took many many photos! needa wait for ahbet to send me den shall upload them! received dao an offline message from wei li coz i didn't online de whole night. haha! stunned~ after dat all of us cabbed down to orchard shopping centre coz elizabeth treating us sakura international buffet! de food was damm super nice la! ate till like around 8 plus den we walked down to paradize and played pool! favourite~ wei xing and ahbet are pros kkz?! reached home around 11plus le. tired~ 2day no need go work! yeah! aha! no need wake up at 6 le! finally~ ohya! geraldine got into NYP le! somemore is my previous course, engineering IT! although it's not same course as me but same school as me ar soo we can meet up and go school 2gether le during orientation! obviously there's also min hun la! haha! gotta miss my colleagues a lot a lot de especially ahbet! we are de first to noe each other and we spent de times 2gether de most le but den now we are separated de furthest away de. hais~ elizabeth also another one i will miss de most le! she's de most patient supervisor i had ever known! i'm fortunate enough dat my first working experience is a good one and dat i'm gonna forever remember these 3 months of memories i had at geylang polyclinic!
thanks for being there. my heart will always make itself known through my words.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@12:54 PM.
