Saturday, May 30, 2009

today is de last working day in IS for dez, my StallManager.
2moro is de last working day in IS for marge, my TraineeStallManager.
now dat TK might be also transferred to InternationalBuilding, i'm even more sad.
although dis is part and parcel of life dat some people are meant to leave in ur life, i still feel a sense of lost.
i dread people leaving my life, especially de ones i treasure.
i will definitely miss those times wif them.

worked from 12 to 8 today.
it had been a realli busy day.
not much time for a break.

OOADPJ quiz on monday, java practical test on wed.
Ah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-EDITED-
forgot to mention.
my secondary school's DM came makan at my workplace yst.
kinda shocked to see her.
i'm glad dat she still remember me. =)

i can't be bothered wif you anymore.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:47 PM.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

like wat i had mentioned in de previous post, i caught NightAtDeMuseum2 today.
wif ED, GL and GL's friend, jj.
it was realli a hilarious movie.
ED fell asleep. LOL!
went back tcc to hand in some stuffs.
...
quizzes and tests are coming back again. =(

after movie, i saw MR.J.
all i saw was his back, shadow.
i realli didn't feel good.
for once, i had realli liked him.
but, he had disappoint me too much.
i will jus wana keep you inside a chapter of mine.

i realli tried veri hard to accept MR.Q.
yes, i dun deny i'm touched by his sincerity.
and it's wat i've been looking for all these while.
but i realised, my feelings is not working for him.
i'm realli sorri once again.

i enjoy MR.W's company.
i can say, he's my best companion.
i will wana share anything nice wif him.
however, he made me realised there's such a great diff between friends and lovers.
i dun like dis diff he had created.
i think, we're better off as friends.

i'm feeling a lot better after blogging out my feelings.
i had been pretty exhausted by these relationship stuffs.
for de moment, i had no intention of starting a relationship.
unless i noe HE had appeared.
i realli hope all these can come to an end asap.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:29 PM.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

i decide to create a quiz about myself in FB.
sis managed to score de highest.
LOL!
dun be too disappointed if you had scored badly coz it's realli a tricky quiz.

next week having java's practical test.
honestly speaking, i dun have a single sense of confidence.
it's hard to accept dis term java's cher way of teaching.
anyway, all de best to classmates and me ba.

caught angels and demons yst wif classmates.
we skipped DBMS's lecture.
laolao helped us scan card. =)
it's quite a nice show actually.
a show which can make me reflect on my religion.

will be catching NightAtDeMuseum2 tomorrow.
movie again. YEAH!
i've been pretty looking forward watching dis show.

it's my turn now, goodbyeMR.J.
at least, you had once marked a smile on me which made me felt not dat lonely during work.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@2:21 PM.

Friday, May 22, 2009

i jus realised i haven't been updating my blog for de past few days.
soo it is for my diary.

dis week had been a pretty heavy week flooded wif quizzes.
although de weightage can be low, sufficient efforts will be still needed.
ohya, sweet joined me for ipnet's lecture on wed.
i realli missed those times attending classes wif sweet.
it had never crossed my mind dat we won't be classmates in de following years.
but since it had happened, i hope she will find her joy in nursing too. =)
ending my week will be DBMSquiz.
FINALLY, it will be rest days for de coming weekend.

faceLIFT for my home, new curtains.
i'm realli looking forward to de new curtains as dad says it will be blackout curtains.
i wonder will i realli overslept for de following week due to de blackout curtains.
WAHAHAHAH!

mum asked me to meet her and bro for dinner 2moro at wisma's food republic as my work ends at 6pm.
it's considered pretty early as compared to de last few working hours.
鸡翅膀，福建面，水饺汤，清汤! my usual!
too bad, sis is having a birthday celebration hence she will be missing these good stuffs.

i had been giving serious thoughts these few days.
i think, i would rather want to be alone.
it will be better for de both of us to remain as friends.
i had trying hard to be ur good companion but things are jus not working.
ur possessiveness is killing me.
there are too many things i needa sacrifice which i dun wish to.
my family and friends are my priority.
i dun wish to lose my family and friends once again.
de price will be even more painful for me to bear it once more.
i'm realli sorri for disappointing you again and again.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:27 PM.

Monday, May 18, 2009

woke up as early as 6am dis morning to complete de UI.
FINALLY, everything was rushed out. =)
HOWEVER, i'm realli sleepy now. =(

it had never crossed my mind dat it will be you until today.
i had been alone all these while, only friends at my company.
i think, i'm too used to being alone, doing things alone.
it's not ur problem, it's mine.
i dun detest relationship, i'm jus fearful of it becoming my burden once again.
give me more time, alright?

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@5:08 PM.

Sunday, May 17, 2009

i finally broke my first CHILLI bottle during work today.
i noe there's nothing to be proud about larh.
WAHAHAHAH!
surprisingly, no one scolded me for dat.
i wonder why too. LOL!

went drinking wif classmates few days ago as a birthday celebration at boat quay.
however, ahGEOK and me had to leave early.
we got him a skateboard wif our names signed at de bottom.

having a causal presentation on tuesday.
i hope things will turn out to be smooth. =)

i'm mentally exhausted. =(

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:48 PM.

Wednesday, May 13, 2009

i was pretty sick yst.
temperature was at 38.5DEGREES.
eventually, my fever subsided as i took panadol.
ELSE, i cannot even enter de school.

anyway, dad fetched me from school to see our family doctor.
luckily, it wasn't dat stupid swineFLU.
i was feeling a lot better hence i returned school today.

saw sweet and heard dat she's feeling unwell too.
i think, many are feeling unwell.
it's realli good to see sweet. =)
i missed her VERI VERI much. =(

it's realli frustrating.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@5:02 PM.

Monday, May 11, 2009

sweet made me a super sweet video burned into a CD to me.
it's about my birthday's celebration she and her family and JJ had prepared for me.
i can still remember dat REALLI tiring day.
for dat moment, de video realli brought me back to those times.
it's realli a super duper pathetic day for me but yet, memorable.

finish off wif 1quiz, OOAD.
it's all multiple-choice. i earned myself 15/20.
i'm soo HAPPI! =)
there's another quiz coming up 2moro followed by thursday and lastly next friday.
2moro is DE heavyDAY again!

i hope i didn't make de wrong decision.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:33 PM.

Sunday, May 10, 2009

today is mother'sDAY!
however, i have to work today soo we pre-celebrated it yst.
had our lunch at paris international buffet.
i'm glad dat mum had enjoyed. =)
it's jus a small gesture from us.
afterall, she had been working whole year round wif no offDAYS for dis family.

like wat i had mentioned, it's mother'sDAY today.
expected for more crowd though.
work had been pretty happi for me all these while i can say.
although de hours can be quite long, i realli enjoyed my time there.
dat's why i felt less tired even after working for soo many hours.
it never thought of quitting since den. =)

PS: my blog seriously needs photos! =(

i'm gonna be care-LESS since you dun give a damm to me.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:05 PM.

Friday, May 08, 2009

i'm not working 2moro!
CHEERS!
bringing mum for a wonderful lunch date 2moro! =)
ohya! there are many many quizzes coming up next week! =(

我真的已经累了。
你可不可以不要把我一直以来的付出当成是理所当然的?!
我不想再付出，因为我真的真的累了。
你对我根本就不屑一顾。
或许你从来都没有对任何一个人没认真过吧?!
我只想做自己。

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:55 PM.

Wednesday, May 06, 2009

played a bet wif ahGEOK today.
i reached earlier den her. =)
our bet is to be continued...

met sis after school today as classes ended early.
train-ed to somerset and had some snacks at my workplace.
everyone seems weird today.
perhaps it's due to de new pre-cautions against swine flu.
i realli hope dis epidemic can get over soon.
at least, our lives will be back to normal.

as usual, we went down to far east, again.
bought some accessories and a dress.
last piece, again.
i'm SOO tired! =(((

thanks for making me smile from de button of my heart.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:25 PM.

Tuesday, May 05, 2009

back to some updates...

3rdJuly
was out wif sweet.
had some light lunch at Junction8.
happened to meet sweet's mum and sis.
we headed to Tampines1.
long journey but not a single sense of boreness.
as usual, we had lots of fun.
train-ed home around 7.

5thJuly
mum left for malaysia early in de morning.
i had work till 6.30.
i was de host of de day, challenging huh.
without mum, we had dinner outside instead.
dad came to fetch me went it started to pour heavily.
we had some 'international buffet' at de HolidayInn Hotel.
however, we paid for a painful experience.
it wasn't international buffet at all.
it's like some hotel breakfast buffet.
totally not worth de price at all, 50bucks/person.

6thJuly
mp3 died on me.
it's only 3months old.
i have to head all de way down to TohGuan@JurongEast.
fortunately, MrWangZhili is bringing me down 2moro.
however, i have to skip IPNET's lecture 2moro coz his class ends at 11. =(

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@11:53 AM.

i knew i was never an easily contented girl.
however, i knew my limits veri well.
all these while, i knew clearly you are always standing by my side.
but i chose to ignore, never to acknowledge ur presence even.
you kept quiet, supporting and helping me still.
i felt guilty dat i can't repay you wif my love, coz i'm a realistic girl.
i rather be cruel to you now, den pushing you down de cliff in future.
you are a precious friend to me still. i'm sorri.

knowing you is de best thing dat has happened in my life.
i never had such a friend like you.
you can be frank wif me, showing me de ugliest side of you.
i can be myself too, not someone who people expect me to be.
i had never enjoy one's company soo much like you.
you always say i'm a gift from god to you, you are a gift from god to me too.
seeing you pursuing ur dream, i'm realli glad.
when you are happi, i'll be happi. =)

after sweet had left IT, you were by my side.
i was utterly lost.
however, you appeared and became my best confidant.
i love ur company, feeling soo comfortable wif you.
i noe i'm always soo straight-forward towards you, sometimes hostile.
but i noe i cannot take ur understanding for granted.
i'll try to improve on my tone.
let's work together for our studies, alright?

i noe it's no longer you.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@11:53 AM.

Monday, May 04, 2009

met up wif sweet dis afternoon coz classes ended extremely early today.
we headed to causewayPOINT.
had seoulGARDENS for lunch as sweet never had it before.
PS: she looks like a suayKU. =P

ate like a pig, my stomach is like pregnant for 5months.
right now, i'm soo full.
i didn't had soo much FUN ever.
honestly speaking, i enjoy her company more den anybody else.
no one will be able to treat me like her.

went shopped around, as usual.
saw many many realli nice clothes.
i realli feel like buying coz my closet is cannot make it de.
HOWEVER:
mummy's day, mummy's birthday, daddy's day, daddy's birthday.
they are all jus around de corner.
i gotta SAVE!

i need some time to think about it.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:45 PM.

Friday, May 01, 2009

after soo many days of silence, my internet connection is finally back at home.
my mio modem died on me since tuesday.
i barely had stuffs to do at home.

jus came back from work.
singapore doesn't looks like she's in recession.
a customer asked de same question as me as well.

work was alright.
fun at times, busy at times.
however, time always seems to past faster when i'm at work.
rum is back, but marge had left.
i missed her coz she's like my mum in tcc.
saw jianwei and his injuried toe.
i can only say, it's a cute bandage larh.

yst's class was till 8.30pm as per normal.
dad fetched me for dinner.
enjoyable? not at all.

i'm pretty exhausted now.
working 2moro, again.
meeting qimin for dinner. =)

i'll leave it up to fate...

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:38 PM.