Sunday, September 26, 2010

dear diary, how does it feels when ur mum doesn't trust you?

heart-wrenching? watever? total disappointment?

i'm turning 20 veri soon, forever still a kid in her eyes and i can totally understand why.

but i guess it's pretty important dat people accepts for who you are, especially from ur family.

yes, family.

you can get de least respect from ur friends but not my family.

only family dun hide, only family accepts, only family...

my dad fares up for no reason, my mum gets emotionally unstable, my bro complains.

my life dun get to breathe normally like wat teens are doing out there!

it's all about grumbling, complaining and scolding.

noe wat? i'm realli getting sick and tired of all these shits i'm facing all these while.

i devoted all my time and effort on dis family dat i called home.

i dun expect for any return, hoping for a tiny little bit of appreciation.

but all i had gotten will be dissatisfaction and backstabbing.

is dis wat a family is like? should be like? can be like?

i hate, i detest.

i can't choose my family.

i think i realli need some chill out;(

it's good to have you around diary.

anyway, thanks diary.

goodnight.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:31 PM.

Friday, September 24, 2010

hi folks, it's been quite some time since i last blogged.

anyway, house's renovation is kinda completed.

at least, all de major works are completed already.

furnitures are still yet to be filled.

DADDY! WHERE'S MY QUEEN BED!!!

soo, 3weeks of torture has ended and dat means i can start to enjoy my holidays.

though i'm like only left wif barely 3weeks? haa.

many friends had been heading out of singapore.

and guess wat i'm doing at home? chasing all de dramas i had left out for de past few months.

time is definitely not spent fruitfully. LOL!

speaking about my newly furnished home, it's pretty standard.

like a wardrobe, kitchen cabinets, tv consoles, dining table, bed, doors.

only great diff will de floor tiles i guess.

complete change for de whole house.

it's hard to describe here soo i'll upload photos when everything is up and ready:)

ohya. tell you guys a shocking news.

i sold off my fat pig.

since de renovation ended, my dad never allowed my fat pig to stay wif us no more.

it's been a year and i knew he was tolerating as well.

it's not like he hates pets but he dun like to have pets at home.

when we were young, he never allowed us to keep pets.

anyway, i sold lele to a girl who has a girl guinea pig at home too.

she's de best candidate of all who made inquiries.

i noe i'm being veri cruel to her but since i can't keep her anymore, i'll sure find her a responsible parent and i'm sure i did it.

nothing can express my love for my fat pig, for she is de one and only fat pig i had ever kept;(

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:14 PM.

Thursday, September 02, 2010

good day everybody.

finally i'm back to my space huh.

it was Teachers' Day yst.

oh, how long have i missed Teachers' Day? i can't remember.

2years? 3years?

i haven't been back to MacPherson Sec for quite some time.

it's a place where i would never wana return.

too much memories for me to bear.

great thing dat i had left there for good.

soo wat's up wif my holidays?

i had been staying at home looking after de renovation works in my house.

it's a great mess actually.

everywhere is soo dusty and dirty.

i can't believe i'm actually living in such a condition.

how much vacuum-ing can't change de amount of dust as well.

anyway, as promised by dad, dis whole extreme turnover thing will end in 3weeks' time.

i'm jus sick and tired of all these.

but it's too late to shout a stop to it:(((

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@3:01 PM.