Wednesday, October 28, 2009
good news!i'm getting better from my flu. =)at least, i won't shiver in de air-con room.stayed at home de whole day yst.completed many tasks like de UseCaseDiagram and 2moro's presentation slides.went to sign my resignation letter today.for some reason, i haven't been wanting to mention dis my blog.yes, i left tcc. =(and it's something real saddening.i will definitely miss every single soul there.these 7months, i gained a lot a lot.from a nobody, i became a somebody.too many people to thanks, let's jus skip de formality.people ask, why do you cry? it's jus part&parcel of life.i will answer, though dis's not my first job, it's de first job dat i feel soo much for.headed to my old place to get a haircut coz i think my hair had been pretty much a problem to me nowadays.practically a new hairstyle.BANGS! omg! LOL!can you imagine me having BANGS?i'm swear i'm still not used to my new hairstyle.i look exactly when i was a small girl.i feel soo young now. HAHA!i bet my classmates will be shocked by my new hairstyle larh.but no matter wat, i still needa face de music 2moro.will you still remember?
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:10 PM.
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
look at de time now.i'm supposed to be in school now.de reason why i'm blogging at dis point of time is non other den being sick.yea, i'm down wif flu. =(((i'm feeling soo soo sick right now.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@3:10 PM.
Sunday, October 25, 2009
it's sunday already. =)time seems to be like not enough.anyway, i had been pretty busy these few days.to be in exact, i should be busy shopping.it had realli been some time since de last time i went shopping wif my family.soo yst, we shopped all de way from Orchard's CentrePoint to Orchard's ION.it seemed like we had soo much things to buy. HAHA!mum even bought me de havaianas slippers i always wanted.we were beat tired when we finally reached home at 8plus.and for today, dad brought us out for buffet again.ya, it's buffet again.dis time, we had buffet at a hotel opposite ParkwayParade.i can say they served realli nice local dishes.not forgotten will be their snow crabs.perhaps it's de season of alaska snow crabs ba.honestly speaking, i would prefer to taste them in Japan.and for fri, i had only 2hrs of OS lecture.intially i planned to skip coz i didn't wana go school jus for a 2hrs lecture.however, sis managed to persuade me to attend lecture although i was still late.reached home at around 11plus and we headed to town.we had lunch at swensens. =)met up wif sis's uni classmates.they are indeed funny people and they dun looked like they are uni students.we cliqued realli well i think.and for wed, all classes were cancelled.hence, i met up wif ahgeok and her sis.we had lunch at tcc.afterwards, we went to have some shopping at ION as i wanted to buy a lappy's carrier.it's a long story why i needa get myself a lappy's carrier.ohya. yeaps, it's ION again.i had been there like 3times in a week already.i used my pay and bought some stuffs for my family.sometimes, some things are meant to be like dis.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:34 PM.
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
school had been pretty fine soo far.basically, i enjoy school larh.even de bickering wif classmates can be soo interesting.they made me realize i'm actually facing some kind of communication problem wif human beings.ohya! i saw LiYan at SouthCanteen.it jus feels good to see her. =)lecturers had been emphasizing de importance of dis sem due to year3's FYPJ and IPP.honestly speaking, i dun think i'm ready for it.somehow, de thought of being a year3 student still frights me.anyway, dat will be some time later soo i can stop thinking about it for de meanwhile.
when will be de day i'll hear ur answer?
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:45 PM.
Monday, October 19, 2009
school's starting later.my class starting at 1pm, finishing at 8:30pm.i kinda look forward to de studying days, but definitely not de project&assignment days.i have soo much to talk to ahgeok.i haven't been speaking to her lately.she's my best buddy in nyp. HAHA!alright, jus a short post for de time being.no more about work...& i had made up my mind.most precious thing to me is you.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:32 AM.
Friday, October 16, 2009
finally, i caught a movie yst.town-ed wif sweet and caught 500DaysOfSummer.it's a pretty LOL film actually. HAHA!but overall de movie is fine for me.anyway, i had a great time out wif sweet.however, i was too poor to buy anything at dat point of time.hence, it was plainly sweet buying dis and dat for me.before meeting her, i met up wif classmates to buy next sem's notes.though some didn't turn up but it's nice seeing classmates again.it's pretty heavy to carry 6 stacks of books around.i regretted for not heading home to put down all de books first.soo it ended up sweet carrying one of de stacks for me.it's realli hard to hang on when de people closest to you dun even give you a single word of encouragement or support.now, it's dad.i dun think i'm still a kid coz i noe my priorities and limits well.i jus wish to be treated like a young adult, given wif more respect and say.de funniest thing is, i'm turning 19 in few months' time.i wish to hear, 'how's ur job today?' rather den 'quit ur job' or 'dun work closing huh'.tell me, how long more can i hang on?honestly speaking, i dun have much more energy to retaliate anymore.i... can't.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:08 AM.
Wednesday, October 14, 2009
hurray! 2moro's my OFF day.sad thing is, pay's not here soo i'm not heading anywhere.good thing is, i slept well last night.it seems like a load off my mind after seeing sweet's fine.soo today, i'm working from 12:30 to 6.it's 5.5hrs again!right now, i'm doing fine alone in SectionB.not for sure if it gets crowded. LOL!ohya! timetable's finalised.actually, i dun realli like dis sem's timetable.every monday and thursday are long days.1 to 8:20 and 9 to 6.i think i gotta re-adjust my body clock again.first class of de day, 2hrs of AccountingLecture@SBM.
boy, i missed you.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:27 AM.
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
2nd post of de day.i jus wana say i'm having an ease of mind finally.i went over to visit sweet before work today.brought over some porridge and sandwich.i'm glad to see her doing fine.i think i can have a good night's rest tonight.there's no pay today.soo unexpected.feeling soo poor nowadays. =(anyway, dad fetched me home today.free ride. =)he complains dat his petrol is even more expensive den my transport fare.HAHA!i think of you.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:33 PM.
today is a new day.i hope it will be a happier day for me.i think i had been pretty tensed up enough.or perhaps, it might be jus some MondayBlues!i was doing closing wif Pian & Rudy last night.it's nice doing closing wif de people you will enjoy their company wif.i completed those closing stuffs pretty early, or even de earliest closing i ever had.we can't timeout earlier den our scheduled time hence we waited like 45mins.luckily sis's ds came in useful at de right time.& i graduated from SectionB!timetable's released!night classes on monday.i prefer it to be on a friday.accounting stuffs, needa head to SBM block.i hate to walk all de way to SBM block.somemore, it's gonna be like few times a week.anyway, i jus gotta shut up and accept it.talk to me.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:20 AM.
Monday, October 12, 2009
to be honest, i haven't been feeling well emotionally these few days.dat explains my unusual performance on sat's shift i guess.i realised i haven't been smiling lately.worse still, i dun even feel like talking either.wat's happening to me?i need someone or something to make me smile.i think i need to have a big laugh off my mind.my whole mind seems to be occupied wif something but i myself dun even noe wat's my mind occupied wif.or is it coz my life is getting boring nowadays?it's 11pm now.i'm turning in soon.
i wonder how's sweet doing...
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:57 PM.
Sunday, October 11, 2009
apparently i had been posting about my life almost everyday i think.perhaps it's due to de boredness i'm facing.actually i prefer writing into my diary coz i believe there's always a limitation to wat you can say in ur blog.anyway, i jus finished packing my cupboard.clearing last sem's stuffs and creating space for next sem's stuffs.papers are all over de place.i think i have to cut down my paper usage.timetable's still not released yet!
btw, de conversation i had wif LiYan yst came across my mind suddenly.
i dun hide de fact dat my mum doesn't like me to work.
it's my stubbornness i noe dat's driving me on.
i admit i have de desire to leave, but dat's in de past, not now.
i have yet to achieve anything.
de last stage is bar and i noe clearly dat's where i wana reach.
although i noe dat day may not come easy and it will not come easy, i still wana hang on.
reason for it being, i wana be someone i'm proud of.
sweet's realli sick dis time.i'm worried sick.i hope i can be at her side now, taking care of her, watching over her.i dun think i'm a good friend to her.i can't be at her side when she needs company.wat kind of good friend am i? =(i always say i'll be there for her but where am i when she's down at bed?i always say i hate people talk more den they take action but wat else can i do for her?i'm actually at work...i'm actually only messaging her...i'm mad at myself, i'm disappointed wif myself.tell me, wat else can i do?
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:52 PM.
Saturday, October 10, 2009
Day2 without SM.today, LiYan & Pian & Me were working together in SectionB.i'm sorri towards not waking up initially.eventually, Pian managed to wake me up.honestly speaking, i was feeling stress coz there were like soo many eyes watching over us.to be true, nobody likes to be watched while working right?not as if i have eyes grown on de back of my head.enough of work! it pissed me off ar!i'm currently waiting for my mac delivery to reach.my stomach's groaning loudly...it's all coz of bro's undecisiveness larh.yeah! i'm not working 2moro. =)SM likes to put me on work on sunday.everything will be jus fine.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:58 PM.
Friday, October 09, 2009
i'm back home!been asked to go home early coz there are too many people on shift.Day1 without SM.everything's still manageable.next week's schedule is out.i can only say it's gonna be a harsh week awaiting me.thursday is my only OFF day.why is my OFF day always on thursday? HAHA!but as compared to others, i think i must treasure having soo many working days.my timetable's not released yet.i'm only aware of my electives.i wonder how will next sem's timetable be like.will there still be night classes?actually night classes will be good for me coz my dad will definitely be fetching me home.i kinda misses school food and my classmates. LOL!yesh, i'm utterly disappointed in you.
receiving too much disappointment from you dat i realli have de urge put a stop to everything between us.
you doubt my feelings, you doubt my true heart.
but do you noe, i dun simply forget a person jus like dis, especially someone i had once seriously wanted to treasure.
you make me feel like i'm not making a single effort and only indugling in my work.
honestly speaking, how much effort had you put in too?
haven't you realise you had been constantly on my mind?
no doubt dat my working hours are irregular but did you even bother to even noe and remember wat are my working days and hours?
i'm sick and tired of reminding you again and again.
every reminder is a pierce to my heart.
i think i had gave you enough chances to prove me wrong.
why dun you understand dat why am i giving you soo many chances when i can simply find a guy who will definitely do better den you?
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:31 PM.
Thursday, October 08, 2009
i'm currently enjoying my off day.today is my OFF day. HAHA!perhaps gonna catch a movie wif my sibling.i haven't been watching one lately and i had been realli craving for it.i had fun during yst's closing.closing job was finished much earlier den expected.we were like waiting to timeout.headed to IB@tcc for dinner-cum-supper wif Pian, HuiRu and Rum.i had PenneMamaMia! =)left early to meet my sis to head home together.luckily we managed to reach home before 12.today looks like it's gonna be a nice day.though de weather might be a little hot.i suddenly thought of our MonthlySpecial, BleedingMaggots.no worries, it's actually a mango-cum-raspberry smoothie.it's realli a veri nice drink jus like SummerTreat.i missed de tase of SummerTreat a lot.i wana go exercise!i haven't been exercising.i think i'm gaining weight each day.i need to cut down on my buffets and late dinners. =(when will i see you again?
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:13 AM.
Wednesday, October 07, 2009
yea it's on de buzz, electives results are released.expected, i went into POA and .NET.unexpected, gl went into LifeScience and .NET.i'm jus feeling a little down. =(trust me, i seriously hope for things to turn better.i'm on closing shift later.dat means, i can still slack at home for quite some.my life's kinda no life recently.i haven't been hanging out wif my friends.i feel soo sad for myself larh.even sis is heading out for a picnic.can someone jio me out?!short post.bye...thanks for dat while.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:07 AM.
Saturday, October 03, 2009
i wasn't on closing shift last night and i'm glad i didn't.i met realli sucky customers yst night.most were satisfied wif my service actually but some, CMI.setting work aside, i dun wana my good mood to be spoilt.dad and sis fetched me home and brought me for dinner.we had HkCafe again. =)ohya! we bought de new camera already.it's de one wif de HighDef video function.it looks cool larh. HAHA!i'm craving for movies again.it had been some time since de last time i caught one.but, wat are de nice movies in days now?can anybody update me? LOL!strictly no horror films alright!oops! de sky is turning grey.it means it's gonna rain soon.eee. i hate rainy weathers.i will be gloomy too. =(love is blooming!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:20 AM.