Monday, June 29, 2009

it's already monday.
my last post was friday.
time passes real fast...

no school dis week.
Home-Based-Learning.
i have no idea which assignment to start first.
jus doing watever i can manage de best.
online attendance on tuesday (1-3) and thursday (1-6).

met jj for dinner after work last sat night.
dined in a jap restaurant jus above my workplace.
typical army dude larh.
we did have a nice chat but i was too tired by den.
he bought me a super big elmo.
thanks DUDE.
i realli appreciate all de things you had done for me.

i realise it wasn't work dat's freaking me out, it's de people.
i realli dun feel like going into de details coz i guess you guys should already noe wat am i gonna say next.
ties and feelings are holding me back.
if not, i would have left ever since marge and dez left.
sweet had a realli nice offer but... i'm still going through serious consideration.
anyway, there'll be 2 new-comers. 1guy, 1girl.
it always feel good dat i'm no longer a newbie over there.
you can teach them and they respect you. AHAHHAHA!

mum's leaving for malaysia dis coming sunday.
i'll be working though. =(
i wonder how will de day be like without mum by our side.

i won't regret de decision i had made.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@12:44 PM.

Friday, June 26, 2009

caught LandOfDeLost wif sweet yst @PS.
freaking hilarious movie.
was laughing most of de time.
initially was @Shaw but de hall was small.
good halls are showing Transformers.
talking about Transformers, bro went to watch it dis morning.
he's back now and he said it was fantastic.

ohya back to yst.
was out wif sweet, Orchard to PS.
she prepared lunch for me and it's edible.
most importantly, it's yum yum. =)
had PepperLunch's salad.
i dun fancy salad but it's realli worth trying.
walked around @PS after de show.
i was a little unenergetic.
a bit out of my usual energy level.
i dun noe why either coz i will always looking forward to every outing wif sweet.
perhaps, i jus had too much rest at home already.
meeting sweet next week again. =)

holidays extended... due to H1N1.
i'm already like rotting at home.
but i think afterall it's not a bad thing either.
at least, i have more time to catch up wif those stuffs i'm lagging behind.
seriously, i cannot be slacking anymore.

i guess, i have an answer.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@2:58 PM.

Tuesday, June 23, 2009

saw ahMOK on de way back home today from school.
he looked realli different from work.
i could not recognise him at first.

TRANSFORMER is in de hit now.
seems like most of my friends are gonna catch it in de cinemas.
is it realli dat fantastic?
i didn't catch part1 previously.
i need someone to fill me in about part1 before i decide wana watch part2 or not.

finishing up wif Il-Ji-Mae soon.
bro had been watching it wif me all these way.
but i dun like watching dramas wif him.
coz he will have plenty comments.
seriously, he needs to quiet down.

dilemma...

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@5:46 PM.

Monday, June 22, 2009

had a long chat wif bro yst night coz i could not get to sleep.
i have realli unique siblings. =)
although sometimes i feel like de odd one out in de family.

alright, i'm not gonna talk about yst's work.
like again...
i dun wana always keep blogging about work's stuff.
anyway, finally spoke to MR.J after quite some time.
i think, i'm ready to put down my feelings for him by now.

will be out wif family dis wednesday.
i'm looking forward. =)
afterall, i have not been going out wif them lately due to my work during de weekends.
and we usually hang out only during de weekends when everybody will be available.
mum needs a new phone badly soo... we'll be getting for her one.
my pocket is seriously starting to burn a hole already.
but de bucks are jus not coming in fast enough. =(

for once, i'm realli confused wif my own feelings.
i dun noe wat's true and wat's not true in me now.
i dun understand why am i having such mixed feelings.
i thought i can get away dis time round.
but i think, i can no longer deceive myself.
should i give you a chance?
or perhaps, giving myself a chance to start everything anew?

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:54 PM.

Saturday, June 20, 2009

i've got nothing to do hence i'm here to update my blog again.
will be meeting jj for dinner after work next sat.
his first book-out, wonder how will he look wif dat BOTAK head.

working from 12.30 to 6 tomorrow. =(
although i'm only working on weekends, i can feel de effects already.
alright, i noe i'm being spoilt here again.
grumbling and complaining over de same stuffs as usual.

today's work was fine.
although i hate being in-charged of SectionA.
i would rather be runner or floater.
at least, my chances of making mistakes is lower.
dat means, i would not get scolded dat easily.
WAHAHHAHA!
had quite a fun time wif YeeShin, de new girl.

you mean nothing to me.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:52 PM.

Friday, June 19, 2009

had been resting at home.
coz, work is starting again dis weekend.
it's better to get ample of rest before work gets hectic.

hooked up wif RedThread and IlJiMae.
wanted to watch both shows like some grandmother years ago.

spent tuesday afternoon in town wif sis.
i always enjoy shopping spree wif her.
we will always have de same temptation.
AND, we always give in.

spent thursday morning in ipnet's revision lecture.
it was pretty early.
however, it ends early too.
anyway, ahGEOK is back too. =)

a photo taken quite some time ago.
it's de first time sweet came visiting me at my workplace wif her family after my work.
PS: i miss my sweet. =(

i swear i look super different from dis photo now.
coz, my fringe has to been clipped up and long pony tail is bun-ed up.
like an ahma now... =(

i realised, you no longer stand in my heart.
no doubt you had once walked in but, you walked out without me realising too.
no doubt my heart was painful when you left but, it will no longer tear for you anymore.
i will not wait for ur return.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:17 PM.

Saturday, June 13, 2009

today is a not bad day. LOL!
wat good EnglishLanguage i'm using.
my point is, today is de first day i'm working wif de new StallManager, ivan.
First Impression: not bad.
however, i never judge a book by its cover.
i have yet to noe him more.
overall, it's quite enjoyable working today indeed.

brought sushi from supermarket at basement.
it's my dinner. =(
turning in soon... CYA!
it's 1 to 6 tomorrow.

i can never be able to put you down.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:10 PM.

Friday, June 12, 2009

came to find out dat my blog had been created for 3years already.
june06 till today...

alright, today marks de end of Year2Term1. =)
BREAKbreak!!!
i'm gonna make good use of dis 2weeks to catch up wif my studies.

anyway, my shift changed from 1-6 to 2.30-8.
i hate dis timing but...
JESSarJESS, jus accept it larh!

most of classmates not in school today.
it feels kinda weird.
not having lunch wif a big group.
i guess, dis's de feeling of being bonded.

wat am i supposed to do now?!
i wana go Prawning, IceSkating, SingaporeZoo, SingaporeFlyer.
i wana go eat Astons, Popeyes, WarakuDePasta.
i wana watch LandOfTheLost, TheGhostOfGirlfriendsPast, Transformers.
there are simply jus SOOSOO many stuffs i wana do.

my feelings for you, still stays.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:31 PM.

Wednesday, June 10, 2009

i have dis feeling, i will flunk today's VBpaper.
whosoever, soo be it.
it's over already.
ipnet's de next 2moro.
i have dis feeling, it will not be dat easy as it seems to be.
soo i gottta, make full use of dat 1 pathetic piece of cheat sheet.
computer thing is soo dead.
it's jus right or wrong.
right command or wrong command.

was feeling a little emotional yst.
decided to meet sweet for lunch.
yea... wif ED, ahGEOK and cindy.
i think, she's de reason for all my smiles.
jus one message from her can turn my mood upside down.
i won't be at least excited to meet my boyfriend larh.
however, we aren't LES alright?!
we are veri veri good friends.
i can never find another good friend like her, who can make me smile and make me cry.

those memories came flashing back.
me, sweet and ED. =)
i realli missed those times.

leave me alone, alright?!

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:49 PM.

Tuesday, June 09, 2009

i tried to put on a smile, realli hard.
it's jus a fake smile.
de feeling is bad.
i'm worried sick about grandpa.
i wish, i hope, i pray, he'll be real fine.
i feel like crying, but not in school.
pretty emotional now, though i look like a real strong girl from de outside.

i miss my sweet, badly.
i think, i depend on her spirtually jus like she will depend on me physically.
i realli miss those times wif her.
listening to a veri sad song, missing her.
but i noe, she won't appear right now.
dis's de first time i wanted her by my side now.

too many things happening recently.
too much for me to bear.
i need a shoulder, a comfortable one.

it's de first time i felt pain in my heart when i rejected a guy.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:33 AM.

Sunday, June 07, 2009

took many many photos today.
many wif my twist, trademark pose. =)
it was dad's birthday celebration.
unfortunately, i didn't take shots in pariss.
let de photos do de explanation...

grandpa admitted to de hospital dis afternoon.
everything came jus soo sudden.
hopefully he's fine.
dearFatherGOD, please let him be fine...

why it wasn't you?

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:02 PM.

Saturday, June 06, 2009

till today, i still haven't get to see my new StallManager, ivan.
some say he's nice, some say he's bad.
anyway, it's getting more and more meaningless working there also.
without de fun laughters wif dez and liling.
without margeMAMA acting cute wif me.
without rebecca bitch-ing wif me.
alright, i'm sounding a little emotional here.
i noe, i shouldn't be looking back anymore.

java practical test a little screwed up.
i submitted de wrong file.
for a moment, i thought i'm gonna score a BigFat'0'.
ended up safe and sound eventually.
thankGOD, de file is still in c'temp.

had been playing hexic and crazyTaxi in facebook recently.
it's looked kinda fun seeing classmates playing.
soo i decided to join in de crowd too.
AHAHAHAHA!
HighScore, HighScore, HighScore!
i wana break my HighScore.

finished watching BoysOverFlower finally.
although i already noe how will de ending be, i still wana watch it.
it's de process dat touches me de most afterall.
but, there's no way dis kind of thing will happen in real life.
i gotta wake up soon.
no matter wat, i still enjoy watching dis show.
de storyline is good.
no regrets even after watching it again and again.
i wana watch de JapVersion!
there are realli seldom shows dat i will watch it again and again.
like PrincessDiaries, i will still watch it once a while.

dad had been suggesting to visit developing countries like vietnam, myanmar or cambodia.
i'm alright visiting such countries but it's hygiene problem which i'm concerned of.
let's see how it goes ba. =)

alright, today is a long post i think.
dad's birthday was yst.
however, we are only celebrating 2moro.
when everyone is available, free from work and school.
LOL!
shall see whether can take some photos 2moro to upload in my blog.
my blog seems soo dead...

i wish it was you.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:28 PM.

Thursday, June 04, 2009

dis week had been a pretty hectic week coz of de java practical test held on wednesday.

however, it's still manageable.

today is thursday and my class is till 8.30pm.

i dun realli like night classes though my dad will be fetching me home without fail.

now i am, playing facebook and blogging. =)

watched 2 movies at a go de previous week.

energy's exhausting.

another one more next week, Blood:DeLastVampire.

had been catching up wif BoysOverFlower.

although i noe de storyline, it touches me de most for de korean version i think.

cried twice till de current EP i had stopped.

i'm get moved easily i feel.

but, i always realise new things from every show i had watched.

watching BoysOverFlower made me realised how pain is it to leave de one you loved without knowing why he/she wants to leave you after going through soo much.

it's better to talk things out frankly and honestly, isn't?

anyway, it's jus a show.

but it reflects greatly on real life.

i saw many cases like dis.

i want to be loved.

what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:30 PM.