Tuesday, September 30, 2008
i apologised. i can't imagine i had apologised to dat china woman. i had never been wronged like dis. for dat moment, i rather i was sacked coz i dun wana apologise to wat i had not say. however, i knew my insistence will not any good. for de sake of all, i had to apologise. although i realli had a hard time working here, i gained many experience. today is my last day but i swear i will miss de people there.
i'm feeling damm lousy.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:50 PM.
something realli bad happened on me yst which will be unforgettable i think coz it's de first time i had been insulted like dis. i cried coz i had been maligned. i had to admit for something dat i did not say jus coz she was a customer and customer is always right. i wonder who invented dis sentence. who says customer is always right?! aren't they human beings?! dun tell me they won't make mistakes. for dat moment how i wish uncle sherman would be there. at least i think he would defend me instead of lowering head to such a person and asking me to apologise jus to chill de matter. it was wrong of me to have apologise to something i had not done but coz my supervisor told me to do soo. however, i had HN. she was beside me all de way and of coz pei-ing me cry. i have to admit dis incident makes me detest china women a little more. i kinda understand wat jerry said le. i swear dis is de first time i feel like i've been treating like a dirt. i hate de feeling of lowering head to such people. readers, please dun ask me about dis matter if you happened to read dis post coz i realli dun feel like remembering de details out of it.
is it all fated?
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:01 AM.
Monday, September 29, 2008
gonna endure for another 2 more days! grhs! damm tiring job! standing de whole day! took some photos wif HN! ahah! i'm always contented when there's her around although it's realli pretty damm sian at times wif some customers! it's always dis word dat works which is ENDURE! i jus needa take a rest man!
things are jus soo different from back den.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:48 AM.
Saturday, September 27, 2008
finally have de time and energy to blog! later working afternoon shift which means needa do closing! i hate closing sia! soo many clothings to pack and categorise! had been working for de past few days! it's realli a lot of people sia! full shift on thursday and morning shift yst! damm tiring and my feets are aching! yst followed one of de staffs out to a customer's house at woodlands to remove de safety tag! it's raining lor! actually servicing isn't difficult at all but it's de different types of customer you will face dat makes dis job challenging!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:55 AM.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
working at isetan scotts today! received our club21 black polo tee! is nice de lor! actually i prefer any polo tee wif a plain and simple design! ahha! changed into it asap! can't wait to wear it! today is all about packing and packing! it's tons lots of clothes lor! dun ever doubt a person's spending power! 2moro starting work damm early coz they are opening to isetan staffs! lol! special privilege sia! i'm gonna start giving services to customers 2moro le! yeah! finally can get to experience wat's de feeling of servicing customers! however, i noe 2moro's gonna be a veri tiring day! =(
armani exchange bazzar at isetan scotts lvl3! discounts up till 80%! damm cheap!
kinda talked things out wif edc! felt much better! i think i should have told him how i felt long ago den we wouldn't have accumulate soo much misunderstandings le! i kinda feel dat i had fought a tough battle indeed! but no matter wat, both of you are always my friend! i'm glad to noe both of you!
be strong jess. hang on jess.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:03 PM.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
i'm sad. i'm disappointed. but i gotta act strong isn't?! tears were about to fall. maybe we shouldn't have depended strongly on you in de first place. is it gonna be jus de 2 of us in future?! our friendship is vulnerable i swear. i hate today but i gotta admit you woke us up. it is as though slapping us on our face. you make me feel like it's my fault. you make me feel i'm kinda extra in dis group. treat it as my fault if dis will make you feel better coz anyway i'm jus nothing to you. it doesn't matter to me anymore coz i had enough of everything all these while.
i wish to go back badly.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:39 PM.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
went ate sakura internation buffet today in advance of bro's birthday! he's turning 22 on tuesday! ahah! went home straight coz i'm damm freaking tired! not much energy left! went home replenish which is to sleep! lol! going see doctor 2moro again! it's in de night dis time! can't wait for wednesday!
i wana start things all over again. can i?! but who realli understands de agony in my heart?!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:30 PM.
finally i'm back to blogging! had been hardcore working for de past few days! working at jurong east club21 warehouse! it's damm freaking tiring can?! first day took out all de clothes from de boxes to write down de new price den second day told us dat we gotta redo coz they wana remove de tags from de clothes! lol! we are like factory workers sia! ahah! trust me, it's realli veri tiring! not many staffs hence we gotta realli step on our speed! but seems like no matter how fast we go, we are sure unable to finish de whole 10sections of boxes by wed! never mind we'll try our best! wed finally going back to isetan scotts le! yeah! anyway, people who are interested can go take a look at de armani exchange bazzar! it's quite cheap! ahah! actually i dun mind de tireness as long as both of you are there!
things are getting different. i wish to noe wat to do.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:21 AM.
Wednesday, September 17, 2008
starting work 2moro! yeah! armani exchange bazaar here i come! lol! will be working at warehouse for de next few days den to isetan scotts and i noe it's realli gonna be a damm tiring job! =( MIA-ing for de next few days!
it's hard to forget de past.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:14 PM.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
early in de morning chengto sms me told me can check results le! checked my results! woo~ i never fail any modules and no D! lol! but GPA a bit poor! 2.78 nia! hais! dun noe whether still can enter NUS ma! needa work hard for de next sem le! chiong to GPA 3 and above ar! finally a load's off my shoulder! wana focus on working now! it's gonna be a tiring job man!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:44 AM.
Monday, September 15, 2008
went forum for an interview at 21club wif ningto and chengto! i took de wrong direction of train! lol! aaha! i think we got de job?! yeah! finally! hopefully we can get to work together! chengto surprised me wif his psp coz he told me he had borrowed to his friend earlier on! haaha! both of them bought their limited edition ds! cool~ they realli make my day! i felt much better now! anyway, chengto promised me to get me game of life when he got his pay! yeah! but needa get psp on my own le! =(
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:36 PM.
Sunday, September 14, 2008
early in de morning quarrelled wif my mum. jus dun understand why you can't put urself in my shoes? haven't you ever considered my feelings before shooting words out of ur mouth? you make me feel i'm damm freaking useless in dis family can? dad ever told me i'm de extra one in dis family. i broke down but i kept it inside. you made me realise my existence in dis family and now jus one word from you make me feel back to square one. am i realli de extra one in dis family? wat am i in dis family? you told me we could be like good friends, no secrets between us. but i felt more and more difficult sharing my problems wif you. instead, i felt more comfortable speaking to my friends. you are tired, i'm also. you came back after a whole day of work expecting me to understand den wat about me? i came back home after a whole day of school classes but i didn't expect you to understand. i jus wish to rest. i jus wish to come back to a place where i can rest comfortably but i felt pressured whenever i step into dis house coz there will be lots and lots of restrictions and rules i needa abide. haven't you realise i'm only a 17 years old kid? i hate wherever both of you compare me wif sis and bro. i realli hate dat. i did watever i can to prove my existence in dis family. i studied hard jus to receive a complement from you all, i did watever you all ask me to do coz i wana feel useful in dis family, i did more den wat i'm purposed to do jus hoping dat all can recognise me but end up i'm de insensible one in dis family. always anyhow spending money, de wilful one. am i realli such in kid in ur eyes? i had a fun day outside hoping to share wif you all when i reach home but non of you is expecting for it. instead, you didn't trust me. i had a sleepless night. am i always have to depend on you all? seriously, i jus wana be part of de family. dis had been my birthday wish every year but it had never come true. tell me, wat more else i have to do? i'm damm freaking sad now.
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:31 AM.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
went science centre, snow city and steamboat for dinner wif girlfriends today! aha! first time going to all these places! science centre is full of adventures, snow city is full of laughter and steamboat is full of fun! ahah! enjoyed snow city de most le! de slide is damm shiok! but needa climb up 40stairs is damm tiring! lol! no pain no gain! explored a lot in science centre! missed a chick hatching from an egg! such a pity! but eventually de chick is safe and sound! finally had steamboat! it's at novena! craving for it for a long time! ahha! ate till damm full! tired but fun! it's been ages since de last time i had soo much fun! and i'm glad dat they are there are me! =)
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:38 PM.
Friday, September 12, 2008
went suntec wif mum, sis and bro! wanted buy game of life de but toys-r-us sells a bit too ex liao! cabbed down to chinatown sata once again coz mum needa do blood test, urine test and x-ray! waiting for her de time damm sian! went bugis after dat again! ahah! had pastamania for dinner den went shopping! bought de checkered shirt i always wanted! mum and bro left for home and sis and me went to far east coz i wana buy boots shoe! finally bought it! yeah! ahha! damm tired! hope dat 2moro will meet dao my girlfriends successfully! =)
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@7:47 AM.
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
wana go out wif girlfriends de but mum dun allow! hais! wana go snow city play wif them! never been before lor! sian! can only stay at home watch drama! no life! i wana go out!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@2:02 PM.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
went HN's house and looked into de papers for jobs! not many jobs available out there except telemarketers! lol! played de game of life and uno! fun sia! i'm gettting one! bro gonna sponsor! ahah!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@10:39 PM.
pei mum to chinatown sata early in de morning yst! went to bugis after dat! saw peiling and adel! ahaha! chatted wif them for a while! seriously i miss them! den its shopping time! lol! bought clothes and bags! going back for another shopping spree soon~
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@11:10 AM.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
jus came back! followed dad coz he wana buy new car and indeed he bought a new car! yeah! hopefully can get to sit on de new car asap! ahah! sian-ing at home again! dramas~ gonna pei mum to chinatown sata 2moro!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@5:41 PM.
Saturday, September 06, 2008
went out wif girlfriends today! kinda sudden! lol! took neoprints again! ahah! damm fun! watched boys over flower aka hana yori dango! nice movie! damm touching! ahaha! recommend you guys to go watch! went mind cafe after dat! mocha float nice nice! photos!
jus simple things dat wat besties commonly do 2gether like taking neoprints will be enough for me! 3 of us will make up a good combination! although simple but it's memorable! it's de understanding, care and concern we had for each other dat warms my heart! my poly life will not be colourful and meaningful without them!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@9:52 PM.
Thursday, September 04, 2008
realli pretty sian these few days! should have tag along wif HN and edc yst! lol! gonna pei my mum to suntec 2moro! she's getting a new job there! anyway, sat's coming le! yeah! miss my girlfriends! =( next week den go job hunting ba! hope dat i can get a job asap! got a lot of movies i wana watch! wall-e, journey to de center of de earth, cyborg she and hana yori dango! heard from sis dat we might be going overseas during dec! hope dat will be back in time for HNs birthday!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@8:40 PM.
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
felt a lot much better den yst le! trust me, de feeling of getting ill always isn't good at all! finally all de pain is gone le! i'm gonna take regular meals in future i swear! lol! haven't been seeing my girlfriends these few days! dun noe how they have been besides worrying about me! ahah! looking forward to our farm trip on sat! hope dat our date is still on! need a job badly! now dat i had recovered i think it's time to start job haunting le! ahah!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:43 PM.
Monday, September 01, 2008
sick. early morning went see doctor. doctor says it's gastric infection. my digestive system had never been good soo i'm used to it le. feeling damm xin ku yst and de day before. glad dat yst i was able to sleep well under de effects of de medicine.
heard from dad dat we are going overseas again le! maybe to taiwan! hope dat there won't be anymore changes! but i kinda preferred japan den taiwan! lol!
what we could have been, ★ JESS™@6:27 PM.
