nowadays dun feel like talking to alvin. i dun noe why too. we are always endless topic for us but now? de distance between us like getting further and further le~ perhaps he's also stressed up by his studies ba. had a stupid bet wif wei li! omg! how stupid can i get to bet wif him ar! i'm gonna lose dis time round le! gotta treat him a meal liao. okie although i'm not working for de next whole 1 week, my schedule is fully drawn up for next week le! haha! soo excited for next week! had been reading up those posts for de past few months or exactly for de past 12 months ba. tears coming out again. realised dat mostly de posts all got him. i missed calling him darling, dear dear. i missed telling him how much he means to me, how much i love him. should i wait?! even a guy worser den X de also went back to ahpeg's side le. dis makes me wonder should i wait for his return ma?! many had been telling me don't be soo silly le but i serious dun noe wat's my heart thinking. soo contradicting~ wat should i do?! follow my heart ma?! but i dun even noe wat's my heart thinking ar! can someone tell me wat should i do?!
i jus wana be myself for once can?
