i'm trying veri hard to give myself a break from everything but it seems difficult man. i dun noe is it i can't or i dun wish to. i also dun noe wat's wrong wif myself. i can be happi at a moment and at de next moment, i'm not at my usual self le. is it schoolwork dat is occupying my mind or other stuffs? i wish to have an answer though. i feel like my life isn't filled full. wana concentrate on my mind on my studies but i jus can't focus. many things are floating in my mind. another dun noe answer. hais. kinda hate de life i'm having now. being a city kid isn't dat easy yea? think many would agree wif me? i wish to escape. coz when i'm in another country, i can forget all my troubles, at least for dat few days. i can totally relax myself. i wonder am i putting on a fake mask again? am i back to those days again?