i tried to put on a smile, realli hard.
it's jus a fake smile.
de feeling is bad.
i'm worried sick about grandpa.
i wish, i hope, i pray, he'll be real fine.
i feel like crying, but not in school.
pretty emotional now, though i look like a real strong girl from de outside.
i miss my sweet, badly.
i think, i depend on her spirtually jus like she will depend on me physically.
i realli miss those times wif her.
listening to a veri sad song, missing her.
but i noe, she won't appear right now.
dis's de first time i wanted her by my side now.
too many things happening recently.
too much for me to bear.
i need a shoulder, a comfortable one.
it's de first time i felt pain in my heart when i rejected a guy.